reindeer in woods

Moved on.

2010-08-01T07:17:00.001-07:00

4223.) My emotions are so screwed up that I don’t even know how to feel anymore.

PERFORMER TO SPECTATOR

Will update my blog today with pictures of NDP. For sure, my(mom’s) camera is of low quality. Thanks so i'm sorry if you can’t see clearly especially the Sezairi(eww, beanhead) and Sylvia zoom in shots. I have to zoom in thrice just to let you guys see how’s bad their costumes are. STRIPES. BLACK AND WHITE STRIPS. Good job , committee. I appreciate our non-pajamas costume now. >: The place is so freaking small.There’s a huge number of military tanks and police cars and not forgetting, fire engines, being “advertised”. There’s a name for every specific group of tanks and they put it there as though as when in war, the whole lot of Singaporeans will remember the name and call for them. And for god’s sake, there’s too many videos capturing random Singaporeans faces on screen. Even worse, they sun is scorching hot that it felt as though as it barely kissing my cheeks. The bag for this year is way better than those classic red and obvious national day bag. It’s more of a tote. ^^ The fireworks are better than last year too. Overall i rate it errrrrr, 6/10 for the entire show. The emcees doesn’t talk much and there isn’t any “news alert” like last year. Kay, whatever. Reminiscing the past. I just miss Ndp, the food, the horrible make-up and the ugly big clappers. <3

Bad quality, right? lol.

xoxo

Maybe fate was set out for me this way. I believe i can pull this through. One thing, i did enough. Remember that.

Eurasian

2010-07-24T00:16:00.001-07:00

4204.) My biggest fear is that I’m not good enough. If I try my hardest, and I’m still not good enough, what then? How do I fix something when the root of the problem is me? What if I’m not a good enough daughter, friend, girlfriend…? How do I face these people if I fail? But I can’t fail, it’s not an option. Please, just let me good enough.

Hai. Finally official opening is over. Another chapter closed. I’ve decided to change my url as I've decided to move on. To really MOVE ON. Not to look back in the past thinking how dumb i was. Nope. I’m not going to that anymore. I’m going to always look forward and start thinking what i should do for the rest of my life. Omg, this sounds so cliché. Maybe moving on will be hurtful but however, it is a real stepping stone for me to do well ; to excel in my life. I think I've been taking my life for granted.. I’ve done so much sins, so much things that hurt people. May this holy month of Ramadhan make me me feel better. I hope that this year Ramadhan is a prosperous one, unlike last year. I’m going to be a good role model to my siblings, my fellow juniors in school and not only that, to my friends too. Especially those who’ve been slacking all year round.

Common Test maybe/maybe not be cancelled. If it is, i have to study hard as apparently, EOY will carry alot of percentage. Next year will be o’s. Next year im graduating from council and netball. Next year stands for my new future. Will it be a good one? Will i graduate with good results and make my parents proud? Umm.

Enough of self-reflection moments.

Did i mention that i dreamt of an Eurasian guy walking around JP with me. I was @ starbucks when this cute ang-moh came by and asked to tour him around JP! And i was madly excited that i forget to pay my bill for my whitechoco ice blended. ROFL. I was walking with him. I still remember he wears this white polo shirt and he has a beard like David’s! (wondering if its really my david) While walking,i could hear those teenagers exchanging gossips among them. (Jealous much?!) We stop by John little as he wants to buy his perfume. He asked me to pick one for me as a memory and when i’m about to choose, my zizta came in. G.r.e.a.t. It was one of my romantic dream apart from Zac Efron calling out for me by my window. (^.^)

If you’re reading this now, i thank you for spending your time reading every single word in this post. I hope you do well in your future too. <: And not forgetting, thanks for stopping by here.

xoxo.

Burnt.

2010-07-14T05:50:00.001-07:00

blogconfession:

4042.) I want to die, but I'm too scared to do it myself. People say that if you're too scared to do it, then you obviously don't want to die that badly. That if you did want to die that badly, then you wouldn't even care about what happens after death or what's beyond the grave. So maybe I don't want to die as much as I think I do. Maybe I just don't want to live for a while. It's like I want to take a break from the world, but I want to be able to come back if I want to.

NOTE TO SELF: I’M HANGING ON, FOR NOW.

i know its wrong for me to say

2010-07-04T07:18:00.001-07:00

Hey <;

Note to self: I survived FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL

I am really exhausted. I can’t believe first week has been a tiring one. But looking on the bright side,i see my friends back. ^^ But i don’t know, part of me doesn’t seem to be so happy either. Or maybe im facing a stage where i can breakdown anytime? Actually i always feel that way. I don’t know what’s going on. Maybe its just my emotions or maybe my mental is too weak to face such a simple situation. In the first place, can i even move on? I always feel so crabby all the time no matter where or when. If time persists, i will be in that particular situation in that spot staring into blank spaces making sure i don’t even shed any tear. Is this when someone ask you ‘Are you feeling stressed?’. Well no. I’m not. I’m still finding my true self. My inner peace (lol, CEP). But whatever, i’m just going to pile this mess up. Pile until it topples over, making me crack inside. I feel so left out in my own world. I was so close to it back then. Back when.. Ugh, nevermind. No use talking bout that either. Like as if time will turn back. I wonder where my self-confidence, my self-determination and mostly, where my strength went.. It feels like yesterday everything just fade away. In actual fact, it disappear all at once. I’m just too terrified to face these challenging obstacle laid in front of me. Yeah, you can say i’m not strong, i’m a coward. But still, i faced it slowly in not an advisable way to overcome it. I said things which i never intend to say. I act like as if i lost my soul, lost myself. I’m still searching.. Searching for my true self. Imagine what will i be 10 years from now. Or worse after O’s. I dont even know i can even achieve high for it. I dont even know if accounting suits me. I chose accounts over pure sciences and i’m still not over it, fyi. What if i can’t get accounting? What’s my future going to be like.. Whatever, i’m going to focus on my studies and also council. I don’t have the great bunch of friends but i appreciate every single one of them for making me smile, cheering me up is the most memorable thing. But as always, david cook smile always make my day.

Enuff for this time-to-be-emo post. I’m going to be a HAPPY girl now. <:

To you-know-yourself-better,

I’m utterly disappointed. In your attitude. The way you acted towards something you pretend you cared. Just realise that you don’t need to pretend anymore. I’m sick and tired of your two-sided actions. One part you really showed you care. But on the other, you like one villain whom i dont wanna know or even be close with. I hope you realise one thing, just let go and maybe you’ll find your future, i’ll find mine. The maybe, you’ll be more happier without someone to even keep ASKING and DIRECT how your life should be. I said this so many times- “Your life, ain’t mine”. Xoxo.

Kicking dreams off

2010-06-26T21:05:00.001-07:00

“Sometimes you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and where you want to be.”
— Gossip Girl

HI <;

Had a 2 and a half days of Mediation course at Victoria school which is located at BEDOK. Logically, we have to travel from Pioneer to Bedok which is like travelling from West to the East. Imagine how long does it take to just travel there with those heavy eyes which makes you feel like you’re going to dose off the minute you seat. Apparently, that’s what i felt. But although there’s other schools brought together for this course, yuan ching students are proven to be anti-social :B
In case you’re wondering, mediation is somehow like a judiciary process where you have to facilitate the party involve in disputes to come with a solution. But, you have to be a neutral third party to avoid being bias. Okay whatever with this course. I shall not elaborate.

note to self (plus everyone) : SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW.

Damn, i am not satisfied with my June holiday. Too much trainings was keeping my schedule busy all along. The student council board is not done yet and i hope the rest can help lihui with it since i got match tmr.

I really need to confront someone soon~ like seriously.

xoxo

IYAZZZZZZZZZZ = LUVVVVV

2010-06-19T08:05:00.001-07:00

Changed mah blogskin and i have a new addiction to a guy, again. Zzz. How lame can i be? Its IYAZ. I thought i just had crush on him ONLY but his voice is so superb that i can even listen to the same song by him everytime (eg. my current blog song). But still, i hate REPLAY okay. Its so irritating when i realise it still being put up in some blogs. It’s annoying although it doesn’t cause much of a impact to me but my ears are too worn out to hear the song.Okay, enough.

Finally, I AM DONE WITH MY HOMEWORKS except for my Eng and Malay. I just hate language okay. It’s terribly disgusting to learn. What, it’s not like i never learn language everyday. People talk and then, learn new stuffs. I know there’s more hardworking students who had already completed their homeworks, congrats. I could have done it earlier if not for Netball. At least, it occupies my time rather than me slacking @ home which may lead me to be obese (well not to that extend though but whatever ~)

NOTE TO SELF: HOLIDAYS IS ENDING.

Anyway i really going to buyy a new wallet soon! My lovely INSPIRED CHANEL (hey, at least i dare to admit :P) wallet has officially been clawed by my rough huge fingers. There’s too much incident where i can’t open my wallet and i just had to use FORCE. Well, not entirely my fault for making it worse. I thought of F21 wallet but nah, too common already especially the rectangle kind but I STILL DO WANT THE RECTANGLE KIND. Okay, whatever with my fickle-mindedness and fyeah, i got my bodycon today! I went around to find a perfect wallet but hell no. Mom discourages shipping so yeah, no shipping ): But there’s this wallet which i really like on e net.. idk i dont feel it really matches my TASTE. Well, there goes my eh-i-want-wait-no-i-dont-want moment. It happens everytime ( to ____ , maybe you experience this alot when you’re with me :p sorryy )
Desperate need: WALLET.

Guess what? Surekha is @ Australia for idk how long alr. You got to come tuition babe! And better be the same piece when you get back not +5kg Surekha. Okay rofl. She texted me this morning, awwwww. but guess, connection was slow. She said it’s quite cold there and deliberately mention that she didnt sweat when she was jogging. –.- whatever kay.

Okay imma end here now. Goodnight!

xoxo

FIRST AND BESTEST TRIP EVER.

2010-06-10T22:04:00.001-07:00

Hi readerz I’m back! <: I was away at Batam for 3D2N and it was awesome! i have no idea how to describe it.

1ST DAY :

In the morning, i had this heavy feeling to leave the house as its my first time to travel alone w/o my family. Dad sent me and yes, he nag at me in the car but i still listen to him. *coughs, imma good daughter* Said my farewell to him and i felt like crying when the car left the school you know. >: Took my passport and assemble then board the bus. I ate my curry puff and SERENE was annoyed with me with my noises eating it and the nice smell. Well, actually, serene is just JEALOUS. *sinister smile. Reached ferry terminal and board the ferry. Sat with my beloved surekha and estee next to her. Estee was quiet back then.

But then, finally she adapt! Haha even nolvin said she was quite noisy at the end of the trip. Lol la you pretty girl. <: Reached waterfront and we had to walk to Harris Resort.

It was so tiring i tell you. As usual, i perspire. Ewww. Reached the resort, went up to listen to a leadership talk. I was embarrassed by the instructor. (inserts scene) After that, went to pitch our tents and field cooking.

Then the best part ever, the JUNGLE + MUD TRAIL. I was wearing my old converse shoe which I still want it for the trail. Damn me >: But despite being all so sad about my one and a half years shoe being fully muddy, i had fun especially during our mud-time!

After mud trail,we washed up and went to visit the orphanage and went to shopping which i dont have time to buy for my family stuffs –.- Soon, it was bed time and we have to sleep in tent and we were woke up at 1plus am to do buddha claps. Wondering if we should put this into our orientation camp ‘11. ^^ Apart from being punished, we had ourselves our hotel room and i shared with surekha, estee and amalina <: Bestest roommates. Checked in and i slept with surekha <3 Bestest bed partner! <:

2nd day

Played keypunch and i had to summarise what ive learnt during keypunch due to my title –.- Damn irritating. Then when to orphanage which touched my heart alot. Especially the part where they sang one song, me and amalina broke into tears suddenly. I managed to guide them to playing captains’ ball and they love it too much that they really abide to the rules of the games (somehow). Whenever the ball get thrown into the drain, they will go and wash it.

“Living in a bad condition was one thing but having to live together with people who feel the pain, hurt and sadness in you are one thing in your life that you will never forget. Although maybe each of them aren’t related at all, but the way they care for each other are one of the rarest moments anyone had done. Having to go on with their life without their parents is already a burden that they have to pull through. When i successfully put a smile to their face , the laughter i heard from each of every one of them made my day. That’s when i realised that simplest thing like a smile can even brighten your day. Giving icecream to them made them feel wanted and cared for.”

back to harris resort for reflection time and headed for a luxury hotel @ HOLIDAY INN. Again, slept with my wonderful roommates. And slept till the next morning.

3rd day

BREAKFAST WAS NICE. I NEVER HAD ENOUGH YET LAH. I WANT THE HASHBROWN, THE HOTDOG, THE CEREAL. =.=

After that, headed back to harris resort to play our Water Rafting. So long since i last swim and my legs are totally aching after two laps. Okay /embarrassed. Lucky for us, we wore lifejackets in a 2.2 deep pool. Our raft was more tighter than the other group,i guess. Hehe. Went internet surf after that. HOME SWEEET HOME. <3

SPEACIAL THANKS TO THESE GROUPS OF PEOPLE:

MY ROOMMATES = FOR MAKING MY NIGHT THE PEACEFUL AND WONDERFUL ONE.

CAMP LEADERS= FOR MAKING THE CAMP A MEMORABLE ONE.

TEACHERS= FOR TAKING GOOD CARE OF US AND MAKING OUR STAY A COMFORTABLE ONE.

YUAN CHING LEADERS= FOR THEIR HARDWORK AND ENTHUSIASM AND MOSTLY,SPIRIT!

Pictures: credit to Jude’s photography.

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Now going to update my tumblr and take away my mac. So craving for it! ><

xoxo

HIATUSSSSS

2010-06-04T23:23:00.001-07:00

Hahaha, thats the awexome part of him which makes me so obsessed but this below dont make my day, i swearrr ~

“What a dope. Um, XOXO.

Gossip Girl hunk Chace Crawford was arrested in his hometown of Plano, Texas, early this morning after cops allegedly found him in possession of marijuana.

Here's what happened:

View the police report.

The bust went down while Crawford and a buddy were chilling in a '03 Nissan outside of Ringo's Pub. (There's no word on the friend's identity, but it's safe to say it was not Mexican travel buddy Tony Romo.)

Police allege he had less than 2 ounces of pot on him. One source tells E! News it was just a single joint.

Crawford managed to spring himself just after 1 a.m., albeit not before leaving the Internet with that gift that keeps on giving, a celeb mug shot.

"He is not in custody," Plano police told E! News. "He already bailed out early this a.m."

The maximum sentence for misdemeanor pot-possession is 180 days in jail and a $2,000 fine.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR DAD IN GOSSIP GIRL?!

No season 4 because of you, i think.

see the diff – he has beard when he’s bad. O.O

For once, i hate you. Phew~ that david cook doesn’t do these stuffs if not i have no one to turn to as my IMAGINARY consultant. It works actually. Whatever Crawford , you seriously disappoint me –.-

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I watched GG and finished the whole season. What a nice ending –/-. If Crawford went out of jail, there will be a season 4 i guess? You better, crawford.

I will be cutting my hair and my fringe later on~ and go for a grocery shopping for my backpack to Batam. Well, i want to see the SETARBAK KOPI there which is….

HAHAHAHHAHA, I HOPE TO FIND THIS IN BATAM = STARBUCKS COFFEE BATAM STYLE.

Okay bye readerz , i hhope you enjoy this post and end off closing my blog with a smile due to the SETARBAK KOPI. i will be @ batam form 7-9june. Not excited. But ill be excited for the flea im going for idk, 2 consec weeks?! Nurul, hope this help to settle your mood. I’m so sorry i havent been in touch with you. but at least, i see you dancing elegantly babe. HAHAH, okay luvvv you guys.

HIATUS MODE : ON

XOXO

disgusted by you

2010-05-30T07:12:00.001-07:00

Its all about Gossip Girl.

Last Friday got my report book and I’m proud of myself for achieving such results which I’m not stating down here in order to avoid unhappiness or even jealousy ): Miss Saw didn’t talk much though. Supposedly, i was supposed to meet Ms Tan. Phew. I think she wants to see me because Humanities is my 2nd bad grade on my report card.

These days i’ve been disliking more people than i thought. Even Lea agrees with me O.O June holidays coming and i know i will spent most of my time in school for dance especially. I hope official opening turns out well. I actually wanted to make this post private but nah~ other time then.

xoxo

I hope that i wont get ---- due to my mischief

i want to be a millionaire so freaking bad

2010-05-22T07:50:00.001-07:00

Am i too late to say this: “MID YEAR IS FINALLY OVER!”

I don’t know whether its a miracle or something but I got 50bux from mom for my good result not forgetting my little gift from Mdm Koh for improvement in Amaths. It was unexpected though. I didn’t know it would be me. :> I’m proud, hoho. Can’t believe i beat __________. I know-Surekha know-They dont know.

I don’t know if this is a miracle or whut but my mom just got herself, (not entirely herself, apart from her buying it on impulse) dad bought an ITOUCH for her. SAY WHAT. I finally get my hands on it although its not mine. It’s really awesome. I’m keeping my eyes on it even if it takes me 9months or so to save 10bux per week. I will surely miss those good food from Stall 2 but hey, look at the positive side, I might lose weight which is a GOOD thing. I need to cut down on my diet so that my spare tires can be reduced. Wow, i didnt just said that. O.O Urgh, these electronic stuffs is really taking over my life.

Today went out to Bugis and Chinatown to find dance stuffs. No more elaboration. But i need to go Chinatown! There’s UJ everywhere. Haleeda and me has to stop pulling our faces in Bugis due to frustration and temptation. <:

xoxo.

APPLES ARE JUICY.

2010-05-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

Omg, finally! Exams are over. Nothing can express this feeling of excitement for JUNE HOLIDAYS! I was counting down when I'm doing my POA paper which was relatively easy. But maybe i shouldn't say EASY so that i dont keep my hopes high and at last, fail the paper or got back BAD GRADES. No~ I had to pass WITH FLYING COLOURS for POA or my life in Secondary School will be a waste! I CHOSE POA BECAUSE I WANT TO BE IN BANKING (when on the other hand, i could take my LONG AWAITING combination Pure Chem/Bio). I had to pass! Its a must or else Mrs Ng and mom will be so furious on me. >:(

Today i actually planned to go out with Nurul and etc but some problems popped up unknowingly and had to cancel off it. They're watching the last song. See, how much i missed the fun. -.- Tmr, i need to go down for some Physical Training. Pre-training? God. I have to come down to school for some ridiculous dance T.T ON MARKING DAY. Teachers are making our papers. I want to sleep my way through the morning but this come up. Gah, fml. Seriously, why is there such a thing? Our principal is so awesome. -.-

I think life in the council will start to activate my STRESS MODE. Whatever, i have my beloved excos and those nice teachers to help us. No way is these stuffs going to prevent me from going shopping. That's why i got plans arranged for me so i can enjoy life (: I will watch Gossip Girl all the way from morning to night. I swear~

I feel like giving up on some matters which i have been thinking lately. Giving up on some people who i've been praying for them to change. At least, realise their bad attitude. However, they give me more junks. I have circumstances to some matters alright? If i'm going to leave the _________, i know all of my efforts will all go to waste. My _______ will be gone. I feeling half-heatedly to do so. ): What if its wrong? What if it will have a bad negative effect? Arghhh.

Poserss

2010-04-18T06:06:00.001-07:00

I hate posers. I hate them copying others. I just hate them ):
There’s nothing to blog much lately. I swear to you that i need money now! I want that lace dress. I want go shopping. I want work.
Fine bye bye. That’s all.

TAGS
Nurul: OMG AMIRAH, LOCKEDUP STARS ROCKS EHHH!

Yeahh ^^

kapui: HELLO! ;D

Hi! (:
Lea: Awwh.. Not proud being vice .. >< teehee,i know euh secretly wanna be president, tag

No! Lol. I swear i dont want be in Exco too, you be lah.

K's LC;: SUP(zxc), taggggg. **** you urgh, you're heels so nice. dw wear le me wear. ): cheryl here.

You referring to the picture? Haha, lol,its not mine, is one of the blogshop!

SANDY: I want gh-cut pretty sneaker-like shoees! I saw the UJ one everywhere. I have flats phobia

Yeah i bet i know why! <:

AMALINA!: YOOO!!! SO LONG NEVER READ YOUR BLOG ALREADY! SO CUTE YOU (BLINGZ) whatever you call it. heheheheh.

Hahaha, thanks!

erni: with the other exco members and the president too! lol.

erni: hello amirah! congratz on being a vice president!!wish you luck in serving the school(continuing)

Thank you erni! (:

I will be on HIATUS

heels, union jack, blingz

2010-04-04T05:38:00.001-07:00

I’ve been seeing the above UJ shoe all around me! But i couldn’t have a chance to buy ): I’ve also seen my lace dress and such, but .. NO. I swear mom will kill me >< The uj bag she had already scolded me for that. I seriously need to go out so i can use my clothes. I think im selling stuffs on my blog soon, i rather get people to come my blog rather than them going to my blogshop unless i found a partner . ^^

Last Saturday, i was out with my Exco-comittee! Haha, wow, i used that word >< I went out with Lihui and Haleeda. We bought our Courtshoe look alike? Haha, but we wanted the higher heels which is more worthy @ 15 while we bought ours @ 19 but at least, we have the same shoe! *we have something on.* HAHAHA *inside joke* Oh ya i saw this booth that can customize my phone and Haleeda and Lihui seriously being so irritating and keep on asking me go do. It’s really tempting! They even have the Viewty live set for preview! And its nice. From the same booth, i bought the BLINGZ(i call that) first. But after slacking, both of them are tempted by me, i guess? i think they helped me during pasting of the BLINGZ. They bought it too! Haha and here’s the result ><

Bad picture quality by my phone > Haleeda’s phone.
Guess what? She bought her flip thingy and she was so excited bout it, and she keeps on bragging bout it and somehow, me and lihui was giving the ok-we-heard-enough- look and keep on saying “ hahah, stop it!” L-O-L. Btw, haleeda, you never cut your nails! ewwwww <:

So that’s my phone and lihui’s. Lihui’s phone is way nicer than mine. Since Haleeda and I have our FLIPZ, lihui, as president, go and get one too! Haha, i want to buy new one which is PINK soon and CUSTOMIZE my phone too. ^^ Psst, can you see haleeda’s phone reflection?

Well, the shopping from 11am-5plus was GREAT with you two~ and haleeda, been long since we shop together. Let’s do it often. ;>
But Mom was all the way calling me to check on me whether i paid my book fines or not =.= IM 15-going-to-be , M-O-M. She keeps asking me whether i had my spects, calculator when im heading to tuition but its a worthwhile effort as mother. But i tend to forget though. Just now was raining right? She asked whether i have my umbrella in my bag. She bought me my umbrella and it’s cuteee! <3 Thanks mom. I love you more than Dad. (Dont tell him)

I AM EXCITED TO WEAR MY SHIRT WITH MY COURT SHOE <:
BOAST BOUT OUR BLINGZ TMR RIGHT LIHUI HALEEDA?
^^

Tag replies :

Nurul: Tag back! Must go fareast again but must wait for me to save money. (; UJ rocks! Hehehe.

Hahaha, yeahhh UJ UJ UJ ALL THE WWAYY <3 Love youuu (:

Lea: Work hard ah, Vice president Y

No, i aint gonna be proud of being Vice so im not going to work hard :P

Michelle: Yes i did.. What a pity!!!!Thanks

*Jealous*haha, but glad you had a great time girl! (:

Nadia.: secretbaby, I need your help abt smth! By wednesday need talk to you abt it ! :>

Sounds so serious? Omg, ok quickk! <3

there’s a hero in you, baby.

2010-04-01T23:44:00.001-07:00

So here’s the video for what MY DAVID did in Ethiopia with the United Nation Foundation and im totally proud of him <3 Despite his career, he still make time for doing this volunteer activities which i found it so sweet (: An idol, wait an AMERICAN IDOL WINNER went to your country to support you. How’s that? Come on anti-david cook, he’s such a sweetie. How can you ever hate him? ( well, if there is).

“American Idol winner David Cook performs for students of Biruh Tesfa, a United Nations program supported by the UN Foundation, in Addis Ababa, Ethiopia, Tuesday, March 30, 2010. Cook traveled with the UN Foundation to raise awareness about the importance of girls education for a special episode of IDOL GIVES BACK, be be aired on April 21st. (Photo credit: UN Foundation/Stuart Ramson) “

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“American Idol winner David Cook, receives a hug from 7-year-old Mekdes, during a visit to Biruh Tesfa”.

“American Idol winner David Cook chats with 7-year-old Mekdes during a visit to Biruh Tesfa,”

“American Idol winner David Cook observes 7-year-old Mekdes do her math, during a visit to Biruh Tesfa,”

I totally love the big picture in the collage! <: How adorable.

How amazing is he! But one word = Bias. How can you stick to one girl only? >:) It will be an exceptional case for me if you had THAT bias on me! >< Ill love that!

Hahha, cute! Im totally going to have this in my phone as wallpaper! <: I feel like stroking his hair! *aroused*

GUESS WHO DAVVE BRING WITH HIM DURING THE TRIP? you guessed it, NEAL TIEMANN. HIS GAY PARTNER Zzzzz.

Neal is being oh so proud of his tattoo as he mentioned in his tweet :

Oh shut up , NEAL. ><

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This week been a boring week. Well, although there’s two days of no school, i guess i'm being left out. Left out in BLOGSHOPPING. I want to cry badly.

Student Council.

I swear i was shock getting to know i am the Vice – President of the Student Council. Triple widen of my jaws happened i think? W.O.W But at least not President. And i wanted that Lithia’s post! >;<

Dear Lihui,

Hey PRESIDENT, ^^ I dont know whether you’re actually happy or sad that you have this postition but I’m happy for you. (: You have more potential than me. Way more~ But you have to work hard and I’ll try to ASSIST you? Haha. But im satisfied with the results THAT YOU ARE THE PRESIDENT and not me (:

Im done hereeee <:

nothing worse than holding back

2010-03-30T06:03:00.001-07:00

People been asking me about (dont wanna say) question these days. Too bad, i didn’t want to tell the answer.

Well, my common test results ain’t that satisfying although my maths got both A’s. BUT… my English is my weakest.

Anyway, I participated in KakiBukit Carnival and now, my skin is PEELING. My itchy hands are so tempted to peel it off. As cheryl said, my skin looks like A PLASTIC SURGERY THAT FAIL. No! It’s itchy even though i had already applied Syahirah’s pimple gel which contains ALOE VERA. Lol. I was madly laughing when i was wearing it. I said ‘Im wearing Syahirah’. LOL. My aunty insisted on me wearing it. Speaking of these, im terribly disappointed in myself. Well, team knows why. We ‘snatched’ others spotlight. ):

I will end this post with :

“To dream that you are dreaming, signifies your emotional state. You are excessively worried and fearful about a situation or circumstance that you are going through.

To see the floor in your dream, represents your support system and sense of security. It may also symbolize the division between the unconscious and conscious.

To use a needle in your dream, indicates that you need to mend some relationship or situation that has gotten out of hand or driven to the extreme. A needle is also symbolic of some emotional or physical pain.

To dream that you are in possession of or taking drugs, signifies your need for a “quick fix” or from an escape from reality. You may be turning to a potentially harmful alternative as an instant escape from your problems. Ask yourself why you need the drugs. What do you hope the drugs will achieve for you?
To see a fence in your dream, signifies an obstacle or barrier that may be standing on your path. You may feel confined and restricted in expressing yourself. Are you feeling fenced in some situation or confined in some relationship? Alternatively, it may symbolize a need for privacy. You may want to shut off the rest of the world.”

- lovelybones

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2010-03-17T07:14:00.001-07:00

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current affection

2010-03-15T20:57:00.001-07:00

FFFFFF, SHE GOT THE JEANS >< Its been a pretty long time since i brag about the jeans. >’:

Back to my updates, its holiday now. My holiday is totally a bore-pack week. Not that i cant go out, but i just dont feel the excitement. For instance,Im free tmr. But, i just dont feel the urge to go out although i really want to. Get what i mean? Haizzzzzz.

I am so screwed because I didnt attend the Financial Literacy Carnival. Woah >< I think i am so gonna get a kick in the butt by Mr Lim but i did text him! Urh. Shall not think about this since i know myself im not in the wrong. (: I miss Mrs Ng though hope your _____ settles soon. (‘:

On Sunday was my cousin’s wedding. Hell yeah, it was awesome! Not only that i get to eat and eat but also, i need not need to attend tuition. However, i feel left out; not gaining any knowledge on every Sunday like i always use to. But it’s okay. At least, i get to spent time with bbyloxe.

Okay, that’sall. xx.

2010-03-07T06:02:00.001-08:00

I dedicate this post to my dear bb, Zahra <3

Hey bestfr, thanks for the wish. ^^ Love you. Just want to let you know that no matter what happens, im here for you. <3 And you’re always there for me. Therefore, i thank you. Stay strong and your mind will slowly be at ease. Anyway, happy one year of friendship with youuuuu. We started of as friends on Friendster and now… how close we are <3 INSERTS HEARTSSS.

BESTF =LOVE

2010-03-05T22:26:00.001-08:00

A very warm greeting to my dear active blog readers. Hope all of you been acting all anticipating for my awesome post! Okay, self-praising.

Well, seriously, my marks for CommonTest isn’t that fascinating. Call me selfish, yes i am. I want to beat _______. Seems, i cant ): But at least, i did well for my combined sciences and not to forget, POA. Im proud of my POA, right junda(haleeda)? ^^ DARAH(DAvid + amiRAH ) IS PROUD OF JUNDA. Lol! My maths, i screwed it with my carelessness, so its partly my fault so no worries for me. ^^v.

Next, I’ve been drooling ( actually, beyond drooling ) on my awexome DAVID. That’s the reason my profile pic is his. Well, it doesnt matter right since we share OUR lives together? *Doublewinks.*So yeah, after this post, i’ll post some of his aDORKable-ness. Lol!

Haha, he’s the one doing starjumps, adorkable, baby. Just adorkable. ><

Mom, this for my one week hols and good result! <3

LIVE FOR DAVID COOK, BABY <3

2010-02-27T05:28:00.001-08:00

- Love your hair! <3

David Cook will be accompanied by the following musicians- Anthemic

Neal Tiemann – Lead Guitar

Andy Skib – Rhythm Guitar and Keyboard

Joey Clement – Bass Guitar

Kyle Peek – Drums

Conclusion: Why does all KYLE got the same hairstyle ? ><

I hope David Cook realizes that even an inch of his body alone can be attractive. See the curve of his shoulder down to his back and hips? That’s fucking sexy. Then he looks at you like he just wants you to stop rambling after a long day at work—that inviting look that just says “come here and I’ll make you forget everything.”

HERE COME THE SHOWCASING OF DAVID’S TATTOOS!

So, when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash
-That’s what the tattoo says >< Last stanza of the ‘the dash’ by Linda Ellis
So let’s analyze this. We already know it’s the last four lines of “The Dash” by Linda Ellis but what struck me the most was (1) the design matches his AC tattoo—notice the swirls. And more importantly, both tattoos—which I believe are all in honor of his late brother Adam—are on his left arm, the one he can write with. Get it? Inspiration, the ability to create, his brother’s memory. Everything. It’s on his left arm. How profound. <3

ROCK FLAG EAGLE

14 – VALENTINE’S BBBY!

IDK WHATS THTTT

GOT ONE MORE ON HIS LEFT ARMMM BUT NO PIC YETTT ><

OK, IM DONE!

Masks all around

2010-02-19T06:09:00.001-08:00

When you feel life ain’t worth living, you’ve got to stand up and take a look around, look way up to the sky. and when your deepest thoughts are broken, keep on dreaming boy cause when you stop dreaming its time to die. and as we all play parts of tomorrow, some ways we’ll work and other ways we’ll play. but i know we can’t all stay here forever, so i wanna write my words on the face of today. -girlsintrees

Basically i went thru a lot this week. I definately learnt about my emotions; not tryna be emo or whatever here. Ah well i hope things will be fine and even better. So tomorrow’s saturday right? mugging + homework time as usual. I can’t wait for common test to be finally over.

Hell yeah, ive been tumblring alot lately. I’d deleted my plurk, so don’t go on asking me ‘Why never update Plurk?’. Thankyou. I’ve been observing people lately. Please don’t get me wrong. Lol. Observing really lets you know of how that particular person reacts. No offence, some reactions really pissed me off. 3-days of observing isn’t enough. ><

Me, sandy and nurul has join the SHOPATHON. Mega excitement, baby! ‘If you win, you can even keep the clothes’ > made me go ZOMG! So yeah, support us ok, our group name is Boxheads. Venue: Bugis Junction ; level one. Most prolly it will be held at the carts shops. Omg, i heard that there’s heel fighting? Omg, cool :B

CT1 drawing nearer. *tension increases* I have to work triple hard as I will be competing against smarter and intelligent classmates. :C They really show me the importance of studying by paying attention and also, by keeping quiet in class. Maths especially. Even Mdm Koh’s high heels can be heard. ><

I need to pass my Humanities. SS is still okay, history=gonecase. Why? Netball. I had to skip classes and i actually made Ms Tan pissed. So sorry. Okay, I don’t know how my maths will be. Heard that MrLiew set the paper. *screams* Ive been sleeping with history notes besides me lately. Haha, trying to grasp those points by doing so. Lame and useless, i know~

Till here, gotta mug! Will update blog every Friday, stay tune! <;

2010-02-15T20:28:00.000-08:00

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How sad.

2010-02-12T20:10:00.001-08:00

“Sometimes, when you want to get what you want the most, you have to do what you want the least.” — Jodi Picoult, My Sister’s Keeper

I watched My Sister’s Keeper tonight, such a beautiful movie. I now want to read the book because everyone say’s it’s much better. But books are always better than movies, you get to use your imagination when you read. I bawled like a baby. i cried so so so so so so so so much. I swear, i use one whole box of tissue. I think that’s the reason why Im having flu right now, and its non-stop flowing. I want to download it on my phone and watch it but i think i probably shouldn’t watch it when i’m out on the train or the bus in case i burst out crying. ):
I swear i cried ): I rate this movie beyond 5 stars! ):
I keep crying although i finished watching it.

Gotta return the RentalCD later, after that, going to focus on studying. I have a feeling that Im going to rot at home today ):

2010-02-08T05:21:00.001-08:00

OMG GUESS WHAT, DAVID COOK HAVING A NEW ALBUM. I JUST CHANGED MY VOICEMAIL CALL ME TO LISTEN. I JUST KNOW THAT KRIS ALLEN COMING TO SPORE THIS WEDNESDAYY!

The lovely bones

2010-02-05T23:05:00.001-08:00

“I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it.” — the lovely bones
“Murder changes everything. When I was alive, I never hated anyone. But now hate, was all that I had.” — The Lovely Bones (2009)

I bought myself ‘The lovely bones’ by Alice Sebold already! Shall wrap it nicely as ever. >< Next, i shall buy My sister’s keeper or borrow it from the library but im still looking forward to reading it!

Today, 6th of Febuary 2009, marks a very essential day for both of my twins/siblings. Happy 12th Birthday Afiq and Afiqah! <3 Not only that today is also ZahraBestf Birthday! Happy 15th birthday to you, oldie! >< Love youu.

Next monday will have a test on Amaths Indices which i suck at it. Okay, shall train up on that exhausting chapter! I just signed up a tution at Jurong East and will be in the same class as Surekha! Hehe, its on Sunday 2-4pm. Unfortunately, i just signed up for one subject which is Amaths. >< Ms Leron is teaching there as well and teaching combined Chemistry. If i were to sign up for that subject, i shall see her for like countless times already, so no. :)

Okay im done here! I just realised my blog never put nuffnang. Ugh, who cares. ><

Oh yes, i really do.

2010-01-30T06:15:00.001-08:00

Tmr is Sunday. Which means Madrasah. Im not bragging about this ever again on my blog. No way.

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I just talked to Mom bout my tuition when dad rudely went against it. I’m freaking disappointed yet angry towards him. But nonetheless, mom was willing to side for me. I love mum, cause she’s like the umbrella to my rain (is there any?) O.O
I will try to update my tumblr and blogger during weekdays though cause ive been tied down by school. Besides, my life isnt that much interesting anyway, so yeah but, i really appreciate if you’ll tag my blog! >:)
I think im going to fail my History test, not because of dear shina is beside me, but that, i'm so nervous that i forgot everything, ok im so doomed.
I had a huge number of test last week and i did revise for all but i think im going to screw my history and e maths. Speaking of maths, i dont understand Amaths on Indices that obviously shows the reason why i need a tutor. I cant fail Amaths, no way. In actual fact, i tend to understand POA now unless i skipped lessons due to Netball. So tournament faster end so, i can focus on my studies.

Till here, shall go to sleep now and keep on praying that David Cook will come down to Singapore. <3

TGIF

2010-01-29T07:19:00.001-08:00

Firstly i want to say sorry to dear shina for not writing her name down on my previous post.
Shina,
Just so you know, we had been through a fight and it wasn't intentional and best friends fight. We are best friends and that what makes us wonderful. In fact, you make me feel accepted everytime. Thank youu. I love the encouragement you always have given me. You’re always there when im down. Its like you know whats happening inside of me, although i tried to be a pessimist. You know im not strong and therefore, you encouraged me. I thank you for that, sweethearrrrt <3
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As promised, those die-hard fans for archie and cookie. Here’s for you guyss.

Friendship is important. I love how hubby humility went lowww all the time luvvv ya xoxo.

Frieeeends

2010-01-22T03:27:00.001-08:00

Refer to Sandy’s latest post,

This is a post dedicated to my lovely sweeties (!)
Amirah, Shina, Nurul, Shi Hui, Shankari.
They're so cute and so lovely, so I've decided to do a little surprise for them!
If you find me asking you strange questions through SMS, just answer :P I won't tell you what I am doing, but you just have to know i am doing something.
I love you, Amirah. I love you, Nurul. I love you, Shina. I love you Shi Hui, I love you, Shankari. All of you are fantastic friends and people who are so understanding and kind. You deserve something better than the world! My life will be empty without you guys and you guys just rock!
ILY FOREVER! (!)

SSANDDDY YOU ROCKK!
I WISH IM IN THE SAME CLASS AS NURUL,SHIHUI , SHANKARI AND SANDY AGAIN, WHY I CHOOSEE SO HIGH STANDARDS. NOW, IM ALONE. NO LAUGHTER, 3E1 SOOO SOLEMN.

2010-01-20T03:59:00.001-08:00

Omg, i dont know why, but his beard its sooo nice! >:D

Landmines

2010-01-16T02:00:00.001-08:00

OMG MUMMMY. Im so buying this with my edusaveeee! It cost up to 150 bucks leh. Omg, but in blogshop. It has external flash and also, casinggg. Its soo cute la!
I haven’t change my subject combination yet due to parent’s concern and also due to my forward-looking attitude, i guess? If i were to take pure, its going be more stressful. ): Bye bye chances.

Enough of those sadness, now for the real thing, i’m having my Amaths test on MONDAY! I just passed for the first test. Now.. Omg, ok, im freaking out. Shall start studying soon! And get my cheque inside the bank! Mummmmy, faster!

im updattttting

2010-01-13T05:11:00.001-08:00

Sometimes I feel like no one cares. Sometimes I feel like no one is there. Sometimes I think I need some help. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone. Sometimes I'm in an empty zone. Sometimes I feel like I'm not alive. Sometimes I wonder if I'm deprived. Sometimes I think the world should end. Sometimes I think I have no friends. Sometimes I want to make them see that sometimes I wish I wasn't me..

I am in terrible dilemma! Guess what Mrs Ng, YES, MY EX MATHS TEACHER WHICH IS NOW MY BIOLOGY teacher tells me everyday when i see her.
'”WHY NEVER TALK PURE BIO/CHEM?" Omg, please stop it. You making my life worse already since last year on E maths! That’s combination ive been wanting for although there’s no physics as many says that physics is the most important subject and leads you to many open doors for courses but… im not interested!
She totally describe the combination so perfectly fabulous that i feel like changing to it! Im applicable, so? I dont know. God~ Help help help. I keep thinking about this.

And now, Im solving two problems!

Netball
Combination - which i got a few days left before the actual studying starts.

Im going die thinking soon. –.- Bye.

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2010-01-09T23:35:00.001-08:00

what did you do before going to bed

Funny question! Hoho, hmm, text people for updates for tmr. Or do crosswords puzzle. ^^

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2010-01-09T23:33:00.001-08:00

mai i know wat is holding u back???school problems???BGR again or family problem???

Lol, hmm, its a complicated situation. (:

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2010-01-09T23:32:00.001-08:00

If you had one wish, what would it be?

To live peacefully in life and cherish the ones i love.

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End of sec`1 orientation.

2010-01-09T23:01:00.001-08:00

I don't know why we put things off but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has alot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear comes from having to make a decision.What if you're wrong, what if your making a mistake you cant undo?

Sec One orientation had been a clear sailing one, for sure! I love the Ycss Night where we all go hyper and all. I love it when my OGLs help me with the class. I love it when i tend to forget everything when im there loving the camp; having fun. I forget everything and that was fun! But i totally hate the part where me,haleeda and surekha and lea slept like for a one hour plus! Omg, haleeda alarm was a nonsensical one! Hoho. Omg, still ROFL! But orientation camp was fun fun fun! I love my councillorsluv.
I love ZOWELL- Thanks for being a great assistant I/C for 1e1 and thanks for helping me, luv!
Ogls- Love the effort you all put in! Stay hyper , all of you!

Back from the top when my father went down to my school to send my bag over but then, i was late due to my Amaths test! And you might want to ask, GOT TEST ALREADY?! All i could answer is, Yeahhh. Okay i was stuck at the first question and get some bloody weird answers which i had successfully solved it when im in MrLiew’s class! I get all so nervous when test comes. –.- Big fear!

Okay off to do my English PowerPoint just to touch up! No maths homework = Yay-ness!

kick your head off my life

2010-01-04T04:19:00.001-08:00

“Just when you think things can’t get any worse, they do. But I’ve learned life is like an hour glass. Sooner or later everything has to hit rock bottom, but all you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to turn everything all around for you.”

Today was Sec1 orientation 1st day was tiring. Grr. Chatted with alot of people today as Im feeling high and down. HAHHA. Okay, sidetrack a little. I guess, i love council, eveeen Haleeda loves it! >:)
Oh ya, today wasnt much of a class-housekeeping day unlike last year. So, i will miss alot of things! ): But susukha is there with me, luvvv you. I got 12 periods of Amaths per week, PER WEEEEK?!

Been thinking about life these days. To be exact, my future. I dont want it go to waste. I dont want waste my time on something i dont want to do. I dont want to wear mask and pretend im enjoying every second of it. Why is it so hard for me to speak up and say out loud? They are monsters or what? Friends are supporting me but what is holding me back? Hope that people gave me? The thought of them thinking i can do it when i can’t… When i finally realized i cant make it, some person actually believed in me and make me take a step back. Why? Why has it has to be you to believe in me? You’re way better than me, you cant put off some great things off your mind and try to prove to someone whom actually thinks im not worthy that i am. Its hard, forget the deal, girl. ): I thank you for believing, i really do. But hon, i got to do what i gotta do. Im not holding back anymore. I hope you understand. Look, everyone got Achilles' heel and mine is standing up right and admit. But i need to face my fear. Im sorry if i ever hurt any of you when you heard the news ): But do keep in mind, i enjoyed every single moment spent with y’all. Xoxo, amirah. Used to be.

Happy New Year!

2009-12-31T03:51:00.001-08:00

First of all, Happy New Year. I wish you dearest out there a very Happy New Year.
I don’t know myself if this post going to be long or short. But for sure, im not crediting anyone for their presence in my life or anything cause' i think you guys should know how awexome you are to me! Im going to start my Sec3 life by being studious student and a hardworking one, too. Hope so. I want get good grades and strive better cause for sure, its not going to be an easy task, right. Bunch of smart-ties will all be around me and hold the name called ‘classmates’. I dont know if my sec3 life is going to be a rock-hard or die-persevering year? Gosh, i dont know. But im sure, with Surekha around, it wont be that bad, right?
Preparation for New Year had already been done. Books had been bought long ago. Uniform just bought today, how ridiculous is that. Socks! Omg, i forgot to buy my socks. Mine currently is so soggy and i mean, soggy and those where when you hold it up, you can actually see it dangling. I dont mean to sound so gross, but yeah. Haircut, yeah done, got my re-bangs and cut my hair so i wont be able to tie it all the time tho i want a long hair, seriously! Shoes, yeap. Got myself a Converse shoe again, but look like a lady’s one tho.Whatever it is. Cheryl’s shoe is quite nice, but i dont know if teacher can spot it out. I’ve got my bag from cheryl-know-haleeda-too shop. Hoho. But at least, Haleeda likes it! :) Pencil box, i using my last year since i can’t find myself a proper one. I want a Roxy type long pencil box but can’t find it. Wallet, got it but i want my Jack Union Pouch! But i think the blogshop already sold it. ):
Achievements for year 2009. First thing first, i got paid thru studying and doing leadership community service ( lol, is that how it’s supposed to sound like?). Yeah, 550bux but im still waiting but i should not take it too granted and became possessed over money. If i do so, i would prolly lost it all in a SNAP! So yeah, have to be careful! Next is, i managed to become a Senior Councillor, is it a good thing? Hohoho. I get the subject combination i wanted, i hope im comfortable with it and able to achieve good results. (: I think that’s about it.

To 2009,
This year had been a remarkable and phenomenal year for me. Although i came upon a silly decisions and face some awful consequences, i manage to pull it through and Im proud of myself. I did my parents proud at least. For two years consecutively, they haven’t said a thing to me and drag me to study like for example, ‘Why are you still on the comp? Go, study!’. Yeah, that kind. Right, mom? Well, Twins going to have a Psle next year and i shall help them in every way i cant but i still don’t want them to beat my low aggregate. If they manage to do so, i ‘ll be doom and i will be so embarrassed. No!
Thank for letting me go to Arab and had a chance to communicate with God and sense his existence. Sending me there with my family had thought me so many wonderful things for example,appreciating my parents/grand-ies/family(o.o). By that, i had my 2nd experience on a plane. Hoho.
Thanks again for making Sec2 year a wonderful experience and turn me into a person whom i thought i’ll never end up being. Stressing on the SHOPAHOLIC-attitude. An attitude whom exist in each girl on Earth. Someone whom can cure it, i shall salute you but i warn ya, its going to be a hard time doing so.
xoxo,xmierxh.

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Just so you know, Im not ready for 2010. I dont know why. It seems so weird and i have this odd feeling that its going to be a disaster. I dont seem to have much people around me anymore. Even F not there with me, but we taking POA together right! Let’s challenge. (insert evil smile). Too much for a lengthy post, am i right? I dont even know if you read, if you are, tag at my Formspring! Thank you. Okay, i think im being impatient nowadays and not to mention, lazy. ): I just head down to buy myself my school uniform with Sis and Mummy and Im feeling tired. TIRED. Even mummy got stamina and i dont. ): What’s the use for trainings, don’t talk about it, make me piss. >:@
Okay, done with the post now, Happy new year people! Tomorrow will be going out to the zoo with Syahirah babyloxe! Excited or whuttttt! Ahh, ok, goodnight.

Before leaving, please write something along with your link at my formspring so i know you read my blog and i’ll link you. ): Lazy to bloghop! Only blogShop. HAHAHA, see the difference?

Okay, byebye.